UPDATE: I really want to leave a bad situationUPDATE: Look, people, this situation is insane. My flat was infested. My life is under direct control by abusive family. I already know I "gotta stay strong and keep trying". I see your "gotta stay strong" and can raise you starvation, long-term isolation, a general level of poverty and hell that the vast majority of you would be unlikely to even believe -exists- in a post-mediaeval world, and in one particular case, prolonged physical torture.
There have been at least 4 instances in my life where a medical professional has outright told me that it was completely implausible that I had not died. Not one of these instances was brought on by my own actions. Only one of these instances involved my getting medical help in time. For the other three, I went through them knowing full-well that there was no one I knew, friend family or otherwise, who was willing to help me -survive-, and not for lack of asking. If I didn't already know <